Originally Posted by killerkat
well ,in lou of that other recent love thread,i'll will say this:
as many of you many,possibly,know i refer to an x-feincee often in many post,well i'll be fuckin' damned if she didn't call me tonight,first time i've talked to her in about 2 months...
well a bit of background too,i've put most of the sad story here before,but in short, we fell in love very fast when i was 16 she was 17, and stayed full on lovin' each other, every day all day, for a good 5 years or so,then about,let's see here, 8 months ago, we got pulled apart from each other,and all kinds of bad shit,to the point where we had no communication(sounds real fuckin' childish doesn't it....tell me about it..) and we would occationally here about each other around town ect,ect, it's claimed that she even went to one of our shows.....
well, when all this went down, we we're like"hell it'll probally be like 2 years before we see/talk to each other again, OK, love you see you in a bit," we honestly were pretty ok, becuse we knew the love/friendship,all that goodness was that strong........ohh,we did get to talk a handfull of times,and saw each other once,(8 months remember)
so skipping ahead a bit,to tonight, i;m stenciling the new band logo(Graveyard Grifters) on my guitar case, and BAM she calls me, i'm happy ,nervous,all the emotions we all hate.....and i pick it up and she's not like "i miss you/love anything" ,now this was a trend in the last 3 times we talked/out of the maybe 5 or soo time we did talk....
and let me tell you how much it hurts ,even a drugged-out,near alchoholic"rocker" with a real lack of emotions, to be brutally hurt,right in the heart, when the one thing/person you care about in the entire world, talks to you like there dog......probally talk better to the dog,
well any ways back to the story,she has this brash demeaner in her voice the whole time,interogating me about ,things basterd ass people 'round town have been saying, "i'm deppresed,stay at home al the time,ect,ect" and yells at me for drinking, OK WAIT i quit all drugs everything for this woman, when i met her and she was all impreessed and felt great ,but said she didn't care ,as long as im responsible,, it's as if she was trying to start somekind of arguement, and let me say we've never got in a fight or anything,so this subtle punishment goes on for a few min. and then, like every single other call, she be right in the middle of a sentence and then BAM"i gotta go," there might be a bye on the end of that,...........so i was really happy today, it was a very productive day, and i damned sure sounded happy(bout the new band) and this shut happens,i know i won't here from her again for a long-ass time, but i can't tell you guys/girls how much this shit has off&on torn me apart mentally/ physically,ect,ect....
what do think?
ohh and get this shit people 'round town(and that could easly mean like 2 fuckin people,just to sound better,"everyone") have said they think im doin' coke or smoking some crack, because i've lost alot of weight,"IM FUCKING POOR YOU DIRTY BITCHES,THAT'S WHY I'VE LOST WEIGHT" ahhh!...........
I can't type any-fuckin'-more ..........
