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In most introductions that I’ve read people try to show their good side and they wax eloquent about how they love Italian food and long walks on the beach. They don't mention their faults or the problems they have with life in general. So you get through reading their introduction and think they're someone you'd like to get to know, until you meet them and find out that they are not as good as they seem in their description. I am not your average person to say the least, I have a lot of big faults that some people might not be able to live with. I’ll list the worst things first and if you can live with those then you can read through to the end and already know about the worst.
I am an extremely open minded and unique individual. Yes I know that every person is a unique individual and everyone tries to be open minded but when you find that you don't fit very well into any crowd because trying new things is your favorite hobby... well that goes farther than your average person is willing to go. It is a natural impulse to be afraid of new things and most people shy away from me because of all the strange things I’ve done. Somewhere along the way, back when I was very small, my fear of the unknown turned into a fascination, now I seek out the unknown for the thrill of it.
I've been hurt by so called "friends" too many times so I try to play hermit and keep to myself but My love of trying new things won't let that go on for too long. I know i'm better off alone but I still feel this perverse, masochistic, need to try to be around people, even though I know they'll only hurt me in the end. Why? Because outside influences introduce new things that I’ve never tried before and that's something I know I can't resist. On the silver side when you expect to be hurt from the beginning you know it's going to happen so you're better off when it finally does. I know people will hurt me, no matter how hard they try not to and no matter how much I do to prevent it, so when it happens I skip the hurt feelings and the anger and move right along to damage control; fixing what the person damaged and preparing defense against that ever happening again. To make a long story short, don't expect me to trust anyone.
I talk way too much for my own good but I think it’s better to speak my mind and know who my real friends are because I know my real friends would do the same. I laugh too loud but I think that there are enough bad things in the world that I should enjoy the funny moments and laugh as loud as I damn well please. I sing along to music even if I don’t know all the words and/or can’t hit all the notes because music is just background noise until it strikes a chord in your heart. I bounce when I walk, no reason for this one, it just happens I can’t help it. I am horribly absentminded but I do my best to compensate for it. I sometimes do things that are bad for me, usually on purpose, either because I enjoy it too much to give it up or because I’m feeling self-destructive at that moment in time. My favorite guilty indulgences are: really good quality chocolate, sleeping in, driving way too fast, going to the spa (whenever I can afford it), and BDSM.
I am a Pagan in all senses of the word, I’d say I’m Wiccan because the principles of the religion are sound but most Wiccans I’ve met seem too much like hippies for me to consider myself to be a member of their ranks. My life philosophies are way different from everyone I’ve ever met because my mother is an eclectic Pagan and my father believes in computers. This makes for an interesting religious point of view and one more reason that I don’t fit in any one particular group.
I like just about every type of music so I won’t list them all here. I don’t watch much TV or movies though I do enjoy them when I’m bored; I feel it is more fun to make your own story than it is to watch a fictitious one. I don’t pay much attention to current fashion; I believe that it is better to create your own style than it is to follow Hollywood. I try not to pay attention to the rumor mill, speculation, and other forms of drama because they are pointless and generally do more harm than good.
I have too many hobbies to list, the best part of trying new things is finding the ones you like, but I’ll try to narrow it down to my favorites. Singing, dancing, sewing, clothing design, leatherworking, glassblowing, wood working, jewelry making (including chain mail), bead work, chain mail, horseback riding, belly dancing, martial arts, cooking, and so many others.
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Originally Posted by VoldtaEngler
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