Now, everything seems to END. I caught HIM. So SAD but VERY real...so painfully TRUE. I wish I was ONLY DREAMING. The SAD thing is THE girl HE replaced ME became one of my textmates since she's also one of the MEMBERS of our INDIE clan. She's the VERY person who TOLD me that HE is her BOYFRIEND...yeah boyfriend in TEXT(and they are just 1 week in their FRIGGIN' relationship). I was FRIGGIN' dumbfounded. I've BEEN very FAITHFUL to HIM in our almost 11 mos. of relationship. So LOYAL and FAITHFUL that sometimes I don't even bother to LOOK if there's any GOOD Looking MALES in my surroundings. It hit me HARD right DOWN my FACE. It's LIKE am being lambasted by a HARD baseball bat. The INTENSITY is too STRONG I hallucinated that I passed out. It's TOO painful to KNOW that the MAN you LOVE has replaced you that EASILY...so easy...and the worst thing IS...he replaced ME with a 16-year old girl...barely a high school STUDENT who he just happened to KNOW only in TEXT. It's TOO painful...too HARD to ACCEPT that AFTER all the HARDSHIPS and SACRIFICES I did it just came down to THIS.
The girl became a FRIEND of MINE in TEXT. She EVEN greeted ME in HER GMs(general messages) for the WHOLE CLAN. In HER FRIGGIN' greetings she always greet somebody and she CALLED him "DEAR"...and for ALL I know the GUY that she's been calling "DEAR" is MY EMPEROR. It's too PAINFUL that I just came to REALIZE all this FRIGGIN' stuff NOW. As she BECAME my textmate FRIEND I shared to HER the pains I went THROUGH in my CURRENT relationship BUT FOR all I KNOW she's been the GIRL in that FRIGGIN' third PARTY. It's TOO painful! I've BEEN crying for almost three WEEKS now. And it just DOWNED to me WHY HE seems to pick quarrels with ME and why it's TOO hard for ME to PLEASE him. He's BEEN playing at MY back for A WEEK. I AM BETRAYED.
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