Alright, after I read the "Goth Boys vs. Normal Boys" thread my existencial angst has kicked back in, and my only way of dealing with it today is to make a post asking people to, for lack of a better word label my ass. For this, I include a brief description of my personality and the mandatory pic:
First off, I know I sure as hell am not goth. I don't wear that much black, for instance, and I wouldn't be caught dead in a ruffled velvet shirt and/or a trenchcoat. I'd rather wear jeans and a t-shirt. I'm not polite or refined, but rather, aggressive and outspoken. I try my best to keep my cool most of the time, but I jump at the first chance of voicing my oppinions and beliefs.
I'm rebellious, and in constant trouble with whatever authority I should be subject to. I reject any system meant to rule me and my peers (and I scoff at the notion of having any, at least in the same town!) finding them inadequate and unfit.
I am antisocial, but not out of misanthropt, but rather, sloth. I'm too lazy to engage in human interaction, so whatever acqaintance I make usually comes from someone else being drawn to me.
Ah, yeah. I have this HUGE ego. I constantly compare myself with other people and, thus far, usually find myslef head and shoulder above such pojnts of references. I am always willing to accept someone else's superiority and, once I'm over the shock and resentment, and after aknowlegding it, I tend to clamor other's virtues almost as loud as my own. I try not to seem too kiss-ass.
Friendships last me long, because I am very loyal. But once it's over, for whatever reason, it' stays over. I am also very proud and reluctant to forgive.
I am not normally hateful, but I can hold a grudge. And, though good-natured, I find myself constantly angered at the people surrounding me, be it for their inefficience, their stupidity or their attitude.
I like to think. What's more, I like to question.
I'm a creative type of folk. I used to think of myself as an artist. I've done a little bit of everything: I've written (mostly uncompleted overly long sagas), I've drawn (I started out copying Jim Lee's style, but soon gefected for the simpler, easier manga), I tried to learn to play several instruments (didn't work. No talent there), and sung in a band ("wailed" is more like it. Planning to do it again).
I still live with my parents. They're very loving persons who seem to like me so much better as long as I keep myself busy, regardless if its putting myself through school or working a dead-end job.
I'm a very loving person myself. I especially am when I feel loved in return. I'm in a relationship with a girl that makes me feel just that, although she's gone to work to the U.K., while I'm still living here, in Mexico.
I am very sincere, even when I know better. I hide nothing from no one, and that includes my girlfiend. This leads sometimes to awkward situations, but at least we'll always trust each other.
I am also very trusting. It doesn't always work out. I get cheated and duped every once in a while, and I don't seem to learn.
Even though I think and I'm constantly told I'm egotistical and self-centered, I can put other people before my interests. That too, doesn't always work out.
I'm regarded to as cold and detached, but I like to think of myself as objective and clinic. I've learned a great deal of stuff being like this and it makes choices and life in general that much easier.
... is this enough? Can you figure me out yet? Hmm... come to think of it, if I were as "objective and clinic" as I keep bragging I am, this whole thing would be unnecesary. Scratch that part, then.
So, that's me. I'm sorry it took so damn long; I was really trying to make it as brief as I could. I know these long-ass posts are a bore to read, but I'm sure there's a couple of us who don't mind them that much.
... I hope.
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