Been in a bit of an inner debate these past few weeks or so. I was offered my old job with a few perks late last year and have to give my answer before the summer. Now at the time I was dead set against it cause "I'd grown up and matured". So I got a day job being a 9 to 5 kinda guy, regular honest man.
Turns out being an honest and upstanding citizen sucks. The people I've worked for are actually WORSE than those I use to work for and those guys are some real scum. Plus the amount of bullshit you have to put up with walking the straight and narrow is insane...I just can't see why people do it. Well that's not all that true, I CAN see why people do it I just don't think the alternative is all that bad.
So I've pretty much been thinking about taking up my old job as a result. It has it's major downsides and I'd be in the legal crosshairs a lot more than before...but the money is really really good. Bit shallow to just focus on that but without a good cashflow you can't really get anywhere or do anything interesting. The legit jobs I had paid well but between taxes and the general crooks of the companies I was slaving for...It just seems pointless.
If being a sucess in that world means being a total prick and beast...I'd rather do that in a world I already know and see better pay and opportunity for it.
At least that's how I'm trying to rationalize it. I'm not fond of the reality I'd have to live and commit to...but if both sides of the coin are the same what's their to lose? I'd rather get killed by a bullet I know that's coming than to slowly die while working in a fucking office or it's millions of variations.
Like anyone I have dreams and ambitions but those get pretty hard to support when good old day to day reality comes knocking your door to pay bills and what not.
Given the position what would you choose?
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