single.....again

[malcolm]

I decided it wasnt worth so I broke up with probably the gratest girl Ill ver have the chance to date in my life. someone who understood that I wanted to be in porn and wa sokay wiht it. someone who was bisexual and attractive and wa swanting to threesome with me and a few of her friends.
someone who had kids (ive always wanted to be a father) and someone who for a while there, I thought was prfect.
im an idiot, im a dick, im a loser. I just posted this to share with yall.
ill be on but not as muhc. not feeling very lively.

[TheDeathKnight]

Why did you break up with her?

[malcolm]

she live din arkansas. she use dto date my stepbro. my stepbro has started causing unwanted shit. she never really was serious about me coming out to see ehr, and it's just a ridiculous mess.

["Chosen"]

if you dont mind what do you mean she was never really serious about you coming to see her?

[scabre]

if ya want me to be honest, i think it was right to getout of that one.
sex isnt everything, anf family ties make things complicated.. and man.. if u pulled a girl like that once.. im sure as hell you can do it again!

[devil13]

shit man Im single right now too. I had a great girl, beautiful, model body, and I loved her more than anything. we were together for five years. we where both going to go to school to get our careers going then get married. she just droped a bomb on me and said she didnt love me anymore and wanted out. she said she was thinking about it for a long time and this was a week after my grandfather died. so all I can say is life sucks sometimes but you just go on. it will get better with time.

[malcolm]

yeah. me and her are friends now. I am inspired though to do somehting wit my life right now. Im gonna do something with my art.

[Tequila Zaire]

Ah gents, it is a tough lot we have when we either dump or are dumped by a lady we thought we'd be with well into forever. I was the in the same boat and it all sunk not too far back. At first I was happy about it then I missed her...then I saw I missed the idea and potential of the relationship more than the person. One needs to be harsh with themsevles about such things and quite literally forget the nonesense of love for a bit...really what would you gain from thinking you'll never gain another like her or even keeping her as a friend?

Cut the ties and move on...hard to do and something I am only now getting around to but...you gotta do it if you want to truly meet another or simply "get on with it" as the Pythons would say.

[malcolm]

Ah gents, it is a tough lot we have when we either dump or are dumped by a lady we thought we'd be with well into forever. I was the in the same boat and it all sunk not too far back. At first I was happy about it then I missed her...then I saw I missed the idea and potential of the relationship more than the person. One needs to be harsh with themsevles about such things and quite literally forget the nonesense of love for a bit...really what would you gain from thinking you'll never gain another like her or even keeping her as a friend?

Cut the ties and move on...hard to do and something I am only now getting around to but...you gotta do it if you want to truly meet another or simply "get on with it" as the Pythons would say.

I get on wiht knowing im not burning all my social bridges. the main purpose for the break up was because of distanc eand timing. we still want to be together but agree we need to wait.

[Lucius]

I would agree with Tequila Zaire form what you were saying before but what ever works for u and like you said in time you might get things back togehter, where they were before with her.
Good luck on both the relationship and the art that you are looking to pursue.

[Tequila Zaire]

I'm all for not burning up bridges to potential happiness but often times that hope can keep your eyes, heart, and mind from looking beyond and off to the horizon...it's quite easy to fall into hope of the grand future when all will fall into place. I killed off many years thinking that and it proved costly.

Women will happily tell you what you wish to hear in terms of "waiting" for a better time...but don't fall victim to that or the false hope it may very well be.

Sometimes you need to destroy a bridge to make a better one.

Or maybe forget the bridge all together and leave a nice river to look...their is a strength in solitude and in taking time away from what we think we want the most. As the old saying goes...on our way to one dream we find our way to another.

[purplepixie]

think im about to be i had a inkling i was doing all the work in this relationship well i just checked my phone records never needed tod delete anything cause the memory is huge last time he contacted me other than to arrange when to meet me for nin gig or to cancel on me was the 28 of last month a good THREE WEEKS AGO
thats it ive had enough now
havent seen him since thursday
and when i asked him why he hadnt as so much have sent me a text he said he was busy how the hell can a doll doser ever be busy is beyond me he also told me
when i said i was bored because we hadnt done anything remotely romnatic since valentines day guess what he said relationships arent meantto be fun
what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!
im 18 thats exactly what there meant to be
come to think of it i dont even have anything in common with him
except hes the nicest boy ive been oyut with and the others have all been nasty

[devil13]

I am on ALT.com. I have met people on there before. Last time I was single and living in S.F. I met a girl in Oakland. It didnt last long and then I met my Ex. I have started to make some new friends from it but no dates or anything yet.

This is something I wrote a lil while ago.

Love, for me its been a combination of pain and pleasure.
I have felt like I was on top of the world and then I have fallen
into the deepest pit. I want it, need it, and dont want to
live without it. Yet I still despise it, fear it, and want
nothing to do with it.
Sometimes the pain of it can make the pleasure of it that
much sweeter. Sometimes the pleasure is overwhelmed by
the pain. And sometimes it can make me feel numb, not feeling
one way or the other.
I have done things that I said I would never ever do. I even
didnt do things that I should have done. I have lied, cheated,
and stole for it. I have broken hearts and I have had mine
broken. Still I would risk it all again for love.

When your in love and you feel loved in return. There is nothing
in the world that is more pleasurable.


I will do anything for her love and she will do anything for
mine.
I would worship her and only her, because I love her.
She would order me to my knees, give me a gentle kiss, then
remind me that the pain of living without her love is more
painfull than the crack of her whip.
I would submit all that I am for that kind of love.

[Ryuken-Kai]

think im about to be i had a inkling i was doing all the work in this relationship well i just checked my phone records never needed tod delete anything cause the memory is huge last time he contacted me other than to arrange when to meet me for nin gig or to cancel on me was the 28 of last month a good THREE WEEKS AGO
thats it ive had enough now
havent seen him since thursday
and when i asked him why he hadnt as so much have sent me a text he said he was busy how the hell can a doll doser ever be busy is beyond me he also told me
when i said i was bored because we hadnt done anything remotely romnatic since valentines day guess what he said relationships arent meantto be fun
what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!
im 18 thats exactly what there meant to be
come to think of it i dont even have anything in common with him
except hes the nicest boy ive been oyut with and the others have all been nasty

shit dude, that's the 'nice one'? Hate to think what your exes are like.... If I were you I'd dump his fat (probably) arse.

[the_darkness_calls]

y'know, that sounds exactly like my ex. he didn't seem to be making hardly any effort while i was, and eventually we broke up (for other reasons, tho..). at any rate, now i feel much better, and you prolly will too, cause then you can find someone who will make the effort and appreciate you, yay!

[malcolm]

I am on ALT.com. I have met people on there before. Last time I was single and living in S.F. I met a girl in Oakland. It didnt last long and then I met my Ex. I have started to make some new friends from it but no dates or anything yet.

This is something I wrote a lil while ago.

Love, for me its been a combination of pain and pleasure.
I have felt like I was on top of the world and then I have fallen
into the deepest pit. I want it, need it, and dont want to
live without it. Yet I still despise it, fear it, and want
nothing to do with it.
Sometimes the pain of it can make the pleasure of it that
much sweeter. Sometimes the pleasure is overwhelmed by
the pain. And sometimes it can make me feel numb, not feeling
one way or the other.
I have done things that I said I would never ever do. I even
didnt do things that I should have done. I have lied, cheated,
and stole for it. I have broken hearts and I have had mine
broken. Still I would risk it all again for love.

When your in love and you feel loved in return. There is nothing
in the world that is more pleasurable.


I will do anything for her love and she will do anything for
mine.
I would worship her and only her, because I love her.
She would order me to my knees, give me a gentle kiss, then
remind me that the pain of living without her love is more
painfull than the crack of her whip.
I would submit all that I am for that kind of love.

I have a membership with alt too. havbe to change it though to my actual s&m status of lord cuz i had it as sub. lol

theres some weird dommes out there...especially the female ones.

[devil13]

the ones I find funny are the ones that say shit like = you will submit to buying me a BMW

[purplepixie]

whoo hoo single now yay

[malcolm]

the ones I find funny are the ones that say shit like = you will submit to buying me a BMW

lol yeh. I tryed to change my profile and it woulnt let me-wont even let me delete the fucker. im screwed. lol congrats purples!