advice from the peanut gallery...that would be you guys

[Kevin]

i started counseling again i gotta go the 22nd, so maybe i just might be able to figure my life out after all.

That's terrific!

[suicidal_tendencies]

hopefully it will do me some good. ive gotten really messed up since being with him, im basically eating myself to death. uggg. i hate food.

[malcolm]

sorry, the computer was slow last night othewise I woul have already responded. it's good youre getting counseling but the protection thing is still out there. and death is the greatest adventure of all.

[malcolm]

basically, if he can kill me, he'd be doing me a favor.

[suicidal_tendencies]

alrighty then. let us please stop talking about him killing people. please?!

[malcolm]

fair enough hows the therapy working out?.

[suicidal_tendencies]

i havent started yet, i go the 22nd, but last time it helped alot so hopefully it will this time too? *crosses fingers*

[malcolm]

hope so. good luck.

[malcolm]

lol. thought it was funny. thats the same day im supposed to ehar back form bender vision about that movie shoot. lol weird coincidence.

[Hellmo]

ok as most of you know, im having problems with my significant other. he lives in florida, i live in new york. we have a daughter who is a year old, yada yada yada. my question is do you think its wrong for someone to leave just to do what they want? like i want to be a nurse and he wants me to sit on my ass raising our daughter and eating bon bons all day. plus we are completely different, I.E, i love rock, hes into that Rap Crap. i mean he throws a temper tantrum if i paint my nails black! i've told him many times i'm going to leave but something keeps holding me back, maybe its the fact that im scared to get myself hurt? or maybe its the fact that he's the only man ive ever been with? i really dont know? your thoughts? comments? and please be kind, my mind cannot take too much of anyone shit anymore.

the first step is always the hardest as anyone will say, that isnt to say the remaining steps will be easy. its comfortable to keep to what you know but life will pass you by leaving you unhappy

if you need to leave then you wont be content until you leave, try just having a break from your life for a month or so

[suicidal_tendencies]

just emailed jeffs mom for 40.00, we'll see how that turns out.

[the_darkness_calls]

good luck, i hope it turns out ok

[suicidal_tendencies]

nothing yet. ugg. im going to go surf the web looking for a good way to get their asses arrested.

[malcolm]

talk to alwayer about it. much easier and less hassle then surfing the web. believe me. I spent almost an hor looking up the phone number of a place I sued to work at. lol

[suicidal_tendencies]

i dont have any money right now for a lawyer, if i did i wouldnt be begging them for money. ugg. im going to become a stripper.

[malcolm]

arent theire public attorneys out where you live? some do case work for battered women gratis. and yuo dont have t be physically battered either. there's also some women shelters around-maybe they can help you in the right direction.....and if you DO start stripping.,let me know where-I'll come out and help fund the cause lol. jk.

[suicidal_tendencies]

lol ill let you know

[malcolm]

cool.

[suicidal_tendencies]

ok so i handed in my papers for my financial aid and im taking the nursing test next friday. everyone wish me luck, im really nervous. plus i started looking for apartments. *im also wearing black nail polish and my toe nails are even black* hehe.

[malcolm]

ok so i handed in my papers for my financial aid and im taking the nursing test next friday. everyone wish me luck, im really nervous. plus i started looking for apartments. *im also wearing black nail polish and my toe nails are even black* hehe.

good luck! and good work on the showing of independence there (I recall you saying something about him notl iking black nail polish.) I think black nails are hto! lol may go and paint mine now....lol oh, wait. no, Im a really big guy, that wouldnt be hot. lol

[suicidal_tendencies]

yes it would be. *winks at you*

[malcolm]

only if you painted em for me. lol

[Kevin]

ok so i handed in my papers for my financial aid and im taking the nursing test next friday. everyone wish me luck, im really nervous. plus i started looking for apartments.

Yay!

*im also wearing black nail polish and my toe nails are even black* hehe.

Right. On.

[suicidal_tendencies]

they sent me 20.00 whoo hoo me. more black nail polish

[malcolm]

good.get som black lipstick to compliment the nailpolish...the shiny kind baby! woo!

[suicidal_tendencies]

already got it. wearing it right now.

[malcolm]

HOT! lol take a picture! I wanna see! lol. have some black lipgloss form my drag days here if you want it? smells like strawberrys.

[suicidal_tendencies]

my glows in black light. it looks kick ass when im partying...which sadly hasnt been any time lately. oh well. im still sexy even if im not clubbing. (yeah, right)

[suicidal_tendencies]

i love the smell of strawberries. i have body spray of that and coconuts, i mix them together and they smell awesome.

[malcolm]

<----loves cocnut. and vanilla but thats cuz IM a vampiric cenobyte. lol

[suicidal_tendencies]

lol. i love all three. have vanilla candles all over my room. i lite them when im chanting, it relaxes me, sometimes it makes me horny, but thats a chance im willing to take.

[malcolm]

hot! lol

[suicidal_tendencies]

it is when I've got them all lit. lol.

[tinstar]

Can't find the post, but props to Toe Cutter for using the term "douchebag"...!

[malcolm]

I find the term douche nozzle a little more offensive though....anyone ever caught that one on loveline? oh-guess Im th eonyl one who listened to that...lol sorry.

[suicidal_tendencies]

douche nozzle?! thats some funny shit.

[malcolm]

yeh.it makes ense if you think about it...which end is the end thats actually used?

[suicidal_tendencies]

ok since i havent written about this in a long time im just gonna do one large summary. here it goes.
jeff is a big doo doo head. we've been broken up for a while now. i met someone whos so much better then he ever will be. jordan doesnt seem to mind being without her father, seeing as she doesnt even know him anyways. im hoping malcolm will want the job for a really long time, but we're just gonna have to wait and see. anyways we're getting our own place and im looking for a job. life is basically as perfect as it can be right now, and i love every second of it. and i havent taken my meds in almost a month and i feel better then ever. go me. lol. thanks guys.

[the_darkness_calls]

glad to see you're doing so well. yay you!

[suicidal_tendencies]

thanks. *does happy dance* wow im a dork lol