This last year, I've slowly been able to see clearer and clearer that the things I think about and do are just not normal. I've been seeing alot of things that are unexplainable, I know they're not real but I can't help it from happening. Sometimes I see things just happening before my eyes that I know are not real. Other times I just imagine the most violent things happening to myself. (espeshily when I ride in a vehicle, it happens constantly during that time) I know I can pin point alot of it to being involved in a violent lifestyle when I was younger, and seeing alot of people be physically hurt. I think it's sort of like how they say people came home from vietnam and never were the same again because there memories haunt them. However beyond seeing things, I seem to take intrest in unhealthy things like torture of others and the effects of diseases. Alot of my actions, are not normal and neither are the things I say. I seem absent of all sympathy for others. It sort of has been creeping me out as of late. I was wondering if anyone out there has had similiar experinces or has any advice other then going to a doctor for meds.
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