Gudentaug,
I want to start out by saying i'm not making this post to glamour cutting, or to get sympathy. I just feel that I need to write this down in a public center and I hope you can all read it.
Some bad stuff went down and i've been trying to cope with it. Entire days of my life have passed by where i've felt nothing but horrible. I tried going on anti-depressents but that just made it worse for some reason.
Every day my anxiety has grown to where I dread waking. I've become so numb and my heart beats so fast so long, that the only thing I can do to feel something different is to cut myself.
I exhale as I cut and the pain focuses my mind and for those moments actually makes me feel better, I feel horrible for doing it because I know its wrong and its so cliche but its the only thing thats worked, even talking to people/friends/family has done nothing but to amplify how I feel. When I did try t fix the problem all it did was make me and the other party feel even worse. I wish I was brave enough to kill myself.
Does anyone else have this problem? Could you send me a private message? I'd like to talk to you.
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