Why did I click on that site? ughhh there are just days when I serioulsy love to hurt my fragile self. Anyhow there were alot of cool looking and pretty girls....I did't read any of the journals or anything but I wonder what they would be like in person? *sigh* I remember way back poor brightstar got jumped on by us for his tanlge cofused ways of saying hewas lonely and wished he had a girlfriend..or something along those lines. BrigtStar your not the only one dude. Seeing those girls made me feel even more alone and even at greater odds with the world. Life is not easy nore is it pleasent, but even staying busy and planning to start my own buisness and working out can not sometimes hide the fact that sometimes solitude can suck. I dunno why people think being single is great, at times it can suck especially when you are alone and disenfrachised with the world around you and yes it never stops even in your 20's it can still happen and I'm sure there are those out there who could say even in thier 30's too. All I know is you just gotta keep chugging along and things will get better. I guess I just miss my friends who are far away and my dad who just died okay well it was a year ago but.....It can be hard at times to tell yourself you're a good person and that you have lots to offer when no one else seem to see it but you and you can often ask yourself do I really have things figured out? onl you yourself can answer that buy not giving up and believing in you. but then at other times being single is the best because you see all the stupid bullshit and cliques and people who just collapse to others levels and there you are doing it your way and being real. Nohting beats that feeling a feling of invincibilty but it is at times such a thin vail....anyhow life is not alwasy perfect and it doens't alwasy seem fair but on other days it can seem amazing and everlasting...it's what you make of it...anyhow....sorry for the ramble....best be back to working on this buisness plan.
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